Guess what...?

Achelle read my journal and not yours!!


Ha ha!!


[SIZE=-1]Huzzah!![/SIZE]

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow40.html][COLOR=purple]High Queen Cordelia[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "I am a fortunate Queen in that my people tend to be deeply loyal to these lands. I have every confidence in all who take up arms, whether they are within or outwith the Order, and am fully grateful for each"

I don't know.. what to say!

"I am currently engaged in a meeting which may continue for some marcs. If not too late, I will ask for your attendance afterwards. Otherwise, it will be within the next turn. ~ Cordelia, High Queen."

That was the original note I received from the Queen last turn.. and boy was I excited to see it!

"If you have the time, I am able to meet with you in one or two marcs. I will take a stroll in the Caer flower garden. ~ Cordelia, High Queen."

Dear journal
The.. best thing happened for me this turn..
After of course speaking with T'yandra two turns ago, I actually had the change to speak to Queen Cordelia.. a private conversation with her! I never thought I would ever complete this life goal, but I have.. perhaps the gods was like; "It's about damnable time!".. though regardless, I made sure to shout out a thank you to them! Whoever was listening!

The quote that I wrote above was one of the main things that stuck to me as I spoke to her.. AND YES I TOLD HER I WOULD WRITE IT!

She had apologized for keeping me waiting.. well, she had to have been in the Flower Garden within two marcs.. however, almost five marcs passed. I wasn't phased! I let her know that my sponsor taught me patience is a virtue, and so she asked me whom my sponsor was, and I told her; "Cody Fireblade is my sponsor. A great man he is!" - I wasn't over exaggerating this.. surely I was not! Though I can't say out of the majority of the meeting I was not scared.. I was SO nervous! I didn't want to mess up.

She said; "Oh, Cody... Well, obviously I hold him in high regard." With a smile! At this time we were actually sitting on the stoned benches, At first, I wasn't sure about sitting.. until she offered me too, thus I did.

I asked her about her past and if she remembered hearing stories about the weapon that Quarrus and Shamson spoke about.. she told me she did not, and it was a new discovery to her as well.. SO a NEW discovery! The mission then would prove to be completely dangerous.. if the mission was a go anyways. Though still.. I kept close to the [url=https://justpaste.it/ShamsonandSealsDG][COLOR=blue]parchment[/COLOR][/url] I made.

The second I asked her about the Order..
I asked her if she planned to recruit more someturn.. but her answer wasn't as I thought.
She said they were like family to her.. Like the bunnies are too me.. it made complete sense. Her words crushed all the other things I was going to ask about it, because she gave me an answer that there was nothing else to say afterwards.

I told her.. "I had felt, that with all that has been happening.. wraiths appearing more often, all these new discovery's... And questions, that perhaps more protection would be necessary for you and the lands, of course those were my thoughts.. though now I see it at a completely different prospective"

Then that's when she responded.. with what's quoted.. those words mean so much to me, and I feel that people should either read them, or hear them. At the end of the meeting, I asked of her favorite colour! And she told me with a smile;

"Shades of blue. Royal, aquamarine, teal. And silver."
I was too excited! was surprised she said teal!! That I do love that colour.. and so I let that be known, before introducing myself again.

We parted ways afterwards.. she spent all the free time and marcs she could with me, and that was that.. I bid her my goodbyes, and we parted..

Queen - "I gathered that from your note." She stands and dusts down her cloak. "I'm afraid I cannot put off my next duties any longer, Loki."

Me - "Completely understandable. I appreciate the marcs that you shared, please, take care. May the gods continue to bless you."

Queen - "And you, Loki."



[SIZE=-1]By far the best of turns and most memorable..
~ Thank you gods! ~[/SIZE]

QUOTE OF THE TURN:
[url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=57568][COLOR=purple]Iron Commander Raffe Rychmin the Shining[/COLOR][/URL]

Quote: "The saying goes that the gods so blessed the lineages of the High Rules of Valorn that there has never been a monarch that was anything less that was the lands have needed. Never a bad one, never a poor leader, never greedy, or self righteous, and.. there never will be. The gods saw to it that our rulers were blessed with knowing what Valorn needs, so it has always been, so it is now, and so it will ever be."

Raffe is a very wise shiny warrior.. sometimes I wonder if this was the warrior who fought the bandits..? But who knows.. I spent my turn mainly with two people, and that was Raffe and Matilda. Each person gave me a very big experience in which I learned from.. I never thought I could learn so easily, so quickly without over excessive amounts of books! Regardless, I've learned. Raffe is a man of inspiration, with many stories and quotes to share and tell, I admire that, and wish to take in whatever I can in order to learn, though this is honestly very good for me.

[url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow192708.html][COLOR=blue]Matilda[/COLOR][/url]...
We're talked so much for so long! First it was casual conversations, then we kept visiting the Killican restaurant! She showed me where the fish sandwiches and stuff were HAHA IN YOUR FACE [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191286][COLOR=green]ACHELLE[/COLOR][/url]! And it's sad.. Achelle will never know I wrote this. ~ Tehee
I can't wait to spend time like this turn with Mattie... because in all honesty she is a wonderful and fun person to be around... I appreciate her..

At the end of this turn, I spent most of my marcs digging with Achelle, and then speaking with [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow23924.html][COLOR=teal]Marron[/COLOR][/url].. such a good turn! Even if I failed to meditate in the beginning with [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=190543][COLOR=darkgreen]Nih[/COLOR][/url]!

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=192708][COLOR=purple]Matilda Tabor[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "I can't make use of it. And potions wouldn't last that long. I wanted to thank you properly for all the smiles you give me."

Honestly, I don't even try! Though I swear to the gods that's all I want for my friends, to be happy. Achelle told me I make people smile too, and when she did.. I can't tell you all how much I felt! To hear that I'm actually making this happen... it's a different feeling from witnessing it! And to think I was actually going to switch up my attitude? I've learned in the last few turns, that you can't please everyone.. Sehdae's words stuck with me.

Matilda and I have been spending a lot of time together.. she actually accepted my apology..
So now I will take notice, that me and Mattie is proof.. that although people can have a rough meet, if you are consistent enough, you could change all of that. Every single thing can change! Every turn I want to apologize to her, but she has already told me that there is no reason for me to, she finds me okay, and we're friends. SHE GAVE ME A FISH SANDWICH!! I didn't even know those things existed! And now I know why.. ACHELLE, she's hiding them from me!!

Speaking of Sehdae, I finally managed to give her that sweetroll like I wanted to, of course she accepted it! Now that I've been thinking about it... when she told me she was in the plains for some awkward reason, I asked her was there any cats around, she said she isn't one for competition.. does she consider herself a cat?! If this is the case, than man! She's the only cat I tolerate!! It's a good thing I don't sneeze while around her.

I am allergic to cats... It makes me fall into a sneeze fit, and then after awhile it's hard to breathe, rid the cats, rid them all, they are killers! Besides Sehdae, which is ironic because, she's also a killer... of some sort; Ha! Go figure.

Oh Achelle;
Me and her have had many conversations. Actually, we've spent so much time together! It's amazing! Though it saddens me, that I am horrible with talking to her... I can't wait to start being able to talk to her frequently, she needs another friend who can open up with her and know exactly what to say. And that'll be ME. Much love for you 'Chelle.~

Conversing with my sponsor was most interesting, we had a very long conversation about his past, I will not share it unless he wants me to, but I can see now why we are so much alike. At first, I didn't notice, until others kept telling me that I reminded them of him, it makes sense.. I sometimes see it! It's kind of awkward! But it's awesome at the same time!

KAIRI... this will never get old. You guys don't know how long I've been wanting to call Kairiel that, and NOW I can! Anyways, I'm happy to be getting so close to Kai. She's provided me with some weapon primitives, and we've had the wildest of conversations.. I'm a little upset though, I want to see the fire!! But I had other stuff to do. She was going to show me some fire stuff, and I was ready for it.. but I had to search for my sister. and JUST when I was about to leave town, in the gates came Vayla; my sister. The gods wasn't trying to let me go, it just felt that way, though if I would have left sooner, I would have missed her!

But anyways, BACK to Kairi.. she's really been giving me some good advice, even with BIG things; and she calls herself a better listener? Thank you fiery goddess number two.

I got the chance to hug and squeeze her, talk to her for a little while.. I am so happy that she's alright. She finally gave me the location of our farm; [SIZE=-2]East of the bromidic hills about one and a half a turns travels.[/SIZE]

If I ever vanish and leave for a long time, I'll be there guys.

Bebhinn....
She's confusing sometimes.. but I still love her regardless.. And all I can say is, whatever happens to us? It'll be.. worth it.. beneficial.. everything happens for a reason, whether we like the reason or not. GuildySisterKin, you will always be in my heart, even through distance.

In other news! I was trying to scare Meara! I think it worked! The conversation went something like this;
Meara was just minding her business, speaking quietly with Haggie.. and I was about to run right pass her! Until I noticed exactly who it was, mind you.. I had followed her trails, from when she passed me up; NO I WASN'T STALKING HER.
So I walk to her, with a creepy smile of my face. I said; "Meeeeraaaa".
She just looked away from Haggie and at me saying something like; "Urm.. Loki..?"
And so, I slowly walked passed her while still smiling, keeping my gaze on her.
Meara just slowly watched me. - YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN HER FACE! She was so confused! It was hilarious!!!

I.... have so much on my list that is not done yet.
I need to draw! And I will, after the digging.. I don't want to miss anything! SO I will FINISH my drawings AFTER digging!

I broke through a hole last turn; heuheuheuheu.
I felt so.. awesome. That is all.


Feed the poor, not the rich - Thank you for your guidance shadows

QUOTE OF THE TURN:
[url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=178759][COLOR=purple]Iron Protector Cody Fireblade the Affable[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "Life would be mighty quiet and boring without you around"

This was half of what he said, though it was regarding the search of the burials! The whole thing was;

"Be careful and don't forget my friend, Branishor has the lead on this, they will get the information and discuss what to do next, if you see anything there though let me know alright? And again, be careful friend. Life would be mighty quiet and boring without you around"

I was trying to find my reason to really smile, and I believe, I truly have. I had a long conversation with Kairiel last turn, she's truly the best, I hadn't noticed- no wait, I HAVE noticed, I was just shocked! You know what? I am content, very. I can't explain to you all how I am but I am. And I know this seems like a large gap with how I felt in my last page, but, that was six turns ago. The shadows continue to lead me, I am so blessed that they do, and very happy.

I want to thank all of my friends for being friends! You all are my life! I've made a few changes, that weren't really big changes, but they were there anyways, and I'm just now acknowledging them. I've found my place, and I'm content with that. Though I assure you, I do still have large goals.. they all will see the dark warrior within me, and although it sounds silly; Loki Dark, how?.

Kairi said I was too bright, and I am.. but with light there are shadows, with shadows, there are darkness. I am the shadow within the light, a shade in between.. though I claim the light as much as I claim the dark. I am the medium, and I don't mind that one bit.

In other news, there is SO MUCH I have to draw!! I promised Achelle a drawing for one, and then Viviyana, Nih, I want to draw Doyle, and I just!! CAN'T EVEN!!

Sehdae would look rather rosy, though whatever drawing I do, I will incorporate myself in them I have to be. Well maybe I would add myself in ALL of them, but, can you imagine that?

And then there's the PLAY, I must focus on that first, and then the drawings.

Oh and I want to give a special thanks to Matilda, she's been really helpful. Especially with choosing the color of Nih's hair. Now I must make another decision, discovery can be dangerous, however, I will not falter. There is much thinking that needs to happen, or talking conversing.

Viviyana is a protector now, I'm so proud of her.. she deserves it. I'm also very happy that we all are almost at in end of this burial search, I hope we do find something that is necessary, the door is at it's last seal, and to be honest, we truly need another. I've been keeping to myself a lot, though, I still manage to find time to speak and play around with my friends; Marc Management is what I like to call it.

There is a flaw about myself that I have, that I've just now noticed.. I serious have a hard time speaking to others who are out of my rank, though I try to I really do really don't try, I mean, even to Marron! But I will rid of this flaw soon, and learn to become a great speaker, like Hojo.

Motivation is the key to success

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=7797][COLOR=purple]Iron Protector Doyle the Holy Warrior[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "Thank you Loki, I have no doubt you will find the path that makes you feel whole... and that you will be remembered by many as time goes on."

I do as well.. Thank You too, friend.
This conversation was not recent, no. As a matter of fact, I didn't even feel like writing in here after it. Including the one I had with Lillya. She actually begged for me to stay, I didn't even realize she cared that much? Then again, I would be a hypocrite; Sense I told her she wasn't allowed to take a walkabout, now the tables have turned. And so, I haven't.. And I think it'll stay that way.

More of my friends have told me how they think of me, and I've asked as well. Sehdae and Kairiel really gave me some good advice.

"Fire doesn't break. Just needs good tending" -- Kairiel Bosburn

"Why do you worry so what others think? No reason to feel out of place unless you feel unaccepted. You find those who accept you for you, and you make them your home, worrying not at all for what the rest think. It is a frame of mind you just choose to have, reaffirming it day to day until it just is." - Sehdae

Thank you, there were more words, though really, these ones stood out.

"Quite the ensemble. You do me a kindness, Loki. Thank you."
Those were Hojo's words. He thanked me for drawing him, it was apart of the contest!! I'm glad he liked it!!

In other news, passing the underground whole one, I had to stitch my friend up...
Literally. Darn Nih. Why did he have to endanger himself so? He's lucky to have a friend who knows how to sew so very well.. I'm happy that he at least gave himself a turn break.. that's all I asked, really. Though he should have been in bed!! Now I'm on Warrior-Guard duty, and I'm perfectly okay with that.

This whole turn wasn't too bad, I guess..
Kairiel has been teaching me a few things, it's a blessing really.. to have her there, at least someone's teaching me some things about acting.. I love it. Plus it distracts me from possibly running off and doing something stupid, like I tend to do.

I think I'm coming into myself.. I'm just not sure yet. Thankfully, Viviyana prayed for me.. it actually made me smile, for real. And yes, I put on a mask every time, because I like to see others doing the real thing. Smiling is.. contagious.

Everyone should smile...
And just be happy...

The shadows will provide.. what I yearn for.. I hope..

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191014][COLOR=purple]Order Adjutant Viviyana[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "Ooh can you draw me horns? I had a wax statue made of me once for the Hand's wax museum..it was of the time I poked at the crab thing and it tried to eat me."

You know, I never realized how creative my friends are. [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=192468][COLOR=green]Valya[/COLOR][/url] is making this crazy event! [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow191286.html][COLOR=blue]Achelle[/COLOR][/url] is the best artist, [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow190543.html][COLOR=maroon]Nih[/COLOR][/url] is the best cook, Viviyana's imagination is amazing, and [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191022][COLOR=darkgreen]Sigarni[/COLOR][/URL] crafts so well.. I always wondered if I had talent like that? Despite the fact that I can dance very well. When I told Achelle that I might draw, she encouraged me to do it- er.. well more so like threatened me with her dagger! But I thank her for doing it, because of that I actually one.. it was shocking. She actually victory danced with me, I do thank Achelle for supporting me so, now she's suggesting for me to audition in Sehdae's acting auditions.. not sure if I'm going to do that or not, despite the fact that I told [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow82135.html][COLOR=purple]Sehdae[/COLOR][/url] I think I might.

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Achelle has always been special to me, I'm glad to have her as such a great friend.. I feel like I owe her something, I'll figure it out soon. Thank you for pushing me, 'Chelle. She's literally been the only one to do so, and makes me so much better.. If you guys didn't know, Achelle helped me a lot, in training, when speaking with people, and she's still helping me now in expressing, though through art. I have no idea where I would be without her pushing me, I'd probably be a lost soul! Everyone needs a little push, and I'm sure happy to get that from her.

The last few turns has been full of excitement, and so exhausting, that I haven't been able to write! But I NEED to WRITE! I write better than I speak, and have proven that with my poem;

The Wishing Star
I hoped someturns would be like a wishing star ~ Traveling balls of fire is better than war.
Traveling all night till it's no longer seen ~ Gone; Into dust with my visions and dreams.
The dreams that I carry will sparkle on shore ~ Like the tears of a child with full of joy.
The night has always been my favorite thus far ~ There is nothing on Trinald like a wishing star.
With a star, I could wish for the craziest things! ~ A glowing blossom, the color of bright green.
Hope and love would be the first thought ~ instead of fearing the wars that were fought.
A wishing star has no price it's free! ~ How unfortunate that we rarely see;
It pass through the night with a sparkle to it's shine ~ Although fire, the star is cherished like rich wine.

I hoped someturns would be like a wishing star ~ traveling balls of fire is better than war.
With war there are no wishes, with no wishes their's no fate. ~ So why would we live a land full of hate?
Valorn is strong and so are it's people ~ We'll rise through the darkness with no fear of evil!
Together as an equal we'll be aligned ~ like stars or a shield standing tall and defined.
A wish for the better, A wish for the hope ~ A wish for turns to be like a special song that was wrote.
So in reality Someturns are like wishing stars ~ Traveling balls of fire with no signs of war.

--

And still, at loss, I think I almost lost hope.. but I questioned myself; If I were to lose it, then who else would hope? I'm glad someone listened, Valya. She almost lost hope with partner life, but followed my words, and now she's happy. She got exactly what she asked for, exactly what she wanted... I'm proud of her. Good things come to those who wait for it. Surely, she had enough patience, and I'm glad she did.

Me on the other hand..
It took me awhile to realize that, I barely think about myself! Though because I stick to me goals, a promise I made myself long ago.. and although, some may fancy me, I tend to fancy many, but in the end, I think I'm actually digging myself a hole; Not intentionally, and then; Really intentional. Honestly, I have no idea what to do with myself anymore.

And as many friends as I have, at times, it feels like there aren't any all.
What would happen if Loki Jester was no more? Surely, things will be the same, nothing will change. It's not like I'm of importance.

I have to think more on this matter....
Or maybe pack my things and take my leave..
I think I see what [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow97718.html][COLOR=teal]Bebh[/COLOR][/url] was talking about.

Lone Warrior..